In a curious turn of events, I have somehow received a handwritten note from him, placed on my car while I was at work today ... along with some lip gloss I apparently left at his place. I am as angry as I am relieved. This one really threw me for a loop.
The note was short, 5 sentences, the first sentence being "War is easy to get into, but hell to get out of" the last statement being "You are amazing". How can a woman who he doesnt love and doesnt want to have a future with be amazing? The note was sincere, sweet, remorseful, and I am really at a crossroads here about what I should do. On one hand, my friends tell me he is being manipulative and that he is just lonely and doesnt have anyone who will listen to him like I did -- but on the other hand, I have the man, who (still) means the world to me, showing me a sign of regret and reaching out for me. Something I want more than anything.
I feel like I want to call him and just ask him what he is doing...?? Why he is doing this. He has clearly stated his case, does he just intend to torture me even more? Is he sincere? Did he write that in a moment of weakness, or does he want to work things out? Why would he try to get in contact with me when he has done everything he could to push me away?
This has never happened before, I dont really know how to handle this situation, other than with tears ... and lots of wine.
What am I going to do?
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