Its been almost 4 weeks, an entire month without talking to him, almost 3 full weeks without contact -- but I still think about him all the time. I wonder if he thinks about me and regrets anything. I hope he does. Those things he said to me, that email he wrote to me, those words will be burned in the back of my head for eternity. Id like to eventually get an Im sorry out of him, tho I know the likelihood of that happening is small. I have had this song Jar of Hearts stuck in my head. Part of me wants to send him an email with nothing but a link to this song in it, and basically tell him to fuck off. Its a pretty strong song, but I cant do that, Im not that person. Besides, that would be pretty final.
I relate to this song because it really tells my story, especially when she talks about broken promises. That is exactly how I feel. I think I am starting to get to the point where I could be ok with telling him to take his apology and shove it, but I feel powerless right now. I still miss him, and even tho I am trying to move on, hence the match profile, I dont think I am quite ready yet -- what I *am* ready for, is an ego boost! What better way to do that than with some cute boys doting on me, wanting to take me out on a few harmless dates?! We'll see how this goes. The last time I was in this broken up situation, a couple months ago, I went out on one date, and, poor guy, all I could do was talk about my ex. Sad, I know. Lets hope that past doesnt repeat itself!!?
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